Sigh.. when I looked at my CT results, I was horrified. It seemed that I was back to square one - the promo results. "What am I doing", I said to myself when I received the CT results paper. "How can I face my parents, friends and even myself?", I stared at the ceiling of my class, in deep thoughts. I was viturally spreehless, wordless and "nothing to say" at that moment. "Shit" was the best word to describe my feeling at that time. Yeah, "a deep pool of shit".

Out of my results, only my GP improved. Hence, at this moment, only My GP, Maths and Bio (to a certain extent) tutors have not given up hope no me. I knew that my Chem tutor had been pissed off my me and my results - A big sigh. But what can I do to savior this predicament? Mug more lor and mug even harder lor and this is the only answer, I supposed. Thus, when the school ends, it is the begining of my mugging period - this is worst than working as there is literally no moment for break.

So everyone, press on and dun give up! We will break through this big piece of shit (A levels) !

Suddenly, I realize that the Prelims is only about 2 months from now and hence, A levels is only about 3 months away. Fear. This was what overwhelmed me at that instant. This is the first time that I feel so unprepared for my examination. The concepts, laws and other content are just "touching" on my head! Sigh, I must blame myself for slacking too much and not using my brain hard enough these days.

I get petty demoralise when I got back my maths common test results on this tuesday. Unexpectedly, I failed (I expected a just pass). Tough I was smiling away when I got my results, my heart was actually aching and bleeding. The shadow of fear overcasted me when I could not see where my future lies. This was not the feeling of disgust, instead it was the feeling of lost and panic. It was like the end of world for me and I was so afriad that I will fall at this part of my life and could never never stand up again. I sank into a state of depression when I reached home. "So little time but so much things to study", I thought to myself. Then, I just stared at the ceiling for a long period of time, thinking of what I should do next. For the worse, AJC was having a career fare on the next day. Hearding the strict demands for the entry of the local univerities during the talks, I was once again, trapped in a situation of confusion. I was lost for words. Hence, I skipped the rest of the career fare in the afternoon and went home to sleep - to escape from this disgusting reality for a moment.

Good bye anime and welcome Mr Moo Moo! Haha, I have finally changed the blog skin which I think that everyone (including me) are sick of it liao. Lol, but this one is a bit girlish o.O Hope u dun mind! Muahahah!

A Tough Term

I am back blogging again after one week of "absence". Haha, I must thank my computer for that. Erm.. a lot of things had happened during that period and they nearly overwhelmed me. Hoho, I am glad I am able to pull through it.

I had gone for a Swiss Reuion (with The Allied Forces), 1104 BBQ, Chui Da BBQ and 1104 guys outing. Yeah, all these events were great and I had really a good time. Thank you people for everything. Oh yeah, common tests were gone case le.. lol.. good luck for me and everybody. I miss co!

Aiya. I am quite mentally exhausted now. May be I will take a good rest at this small break. Take care people!